Two months into my weight-loss journey

The flight home

On the flight home from Sevilla, I felt crammed into my seat and could not stop sweating. Neither problem was new, but spending the journey unable to get comfortable made them difficult to ignore. Sometime after returning home, I decided to try losing weight again.

I do not like seeing myself in the mirror. I have learned to live with that discomfort, but it is part of why I want to lose weight. I want to feel good about what I see and to feel in shape.

I want to do more sports. I want to enjoy activities with my friends without first wondering whether my body will get in the way. I want to go skydiving, fit into my clothes better, and stop struggling to find new ones. I want to be able to sit on a random chair without quietly checking whether it will hold me.

More than anything, I want better health and more freedom in what I can choose to do.

Why 140 kg comes first

My current target is 100 kg, but that number is too far away to be useful every day. My first milestone is 140 kg for a very practical reason: it is the maximum weight my bike supports.

Reaching it would make riding possible again, giving the milestone meaning beyond being another number on the scale.

As of July 21, I am 8.9 kg away.

The daily numbers have not moved in a straight line. They have stalled, jumped, and sometimes gone backwards, but the overall direction is clear.

A deliberately simple plan

For now, I have a daily food budget of 2,500 kcal and aim to walk at least 8,000 steps. Most of those walks are low to moderate in intensity. There is no complicated training programme behind the first 14.6 kg, just a calorie limit I can follow and a level of activity I can sustain.

Eating protein first

I still eat everything. This is not a diet built around banning particular foods. Instead, I aim for around 200 g of protein each day and build my meals around it because I find it keeps me full.

A typical day starts with four eggs and a slice of bread. Lunch and dinner each consist of roughly 60 g of dry rice, 200 g of vegetables, and 200 g of chicken or beef. Parmesan and quinoa are some of the other protein sources I regularly use.

I do not weigh and log every ingredient each day. I have a few menus designed around my calorie budget, and I mostly repeat the same menu for about a week. The repetition removes decisions and makes the plan easier to follow.

Before May 24, my choices were random and often involved junk food or fast food. I still eat out once or twice a week and enjoy it without going overboard, but I have learned that fast food and too much sugar tend to bring my cravings back. I would rather eat a little more of an ordinary meal than have a so-called cheat meal that makes the next few days harder.

Why walking is enough for now

I am currently dealing with paroxysmal atrial fibrillation, an irregular heart rhythm that occurs in episodes. Mine usually begin a couple of hours after physical effort rather than during it, so I have to consider how I may feel afterwards even when an activity feels fine at the time.

For now, I am avoiding high-intensity workouts and sticking to low- to moderate-intensity walks. At my current weight, walking is still meaningful exercise.

The walk shown here covered 7.69 km in just over two hours, and my watch estimated 764 active kcal. The number is only an estimate; what matters to me is that walking lets me exercise consistently without pushing for an intensity I cannot currently sustain.

I expect to have a procedure in mid-August and hope to return to the gym once I have recovered.

Making motivation less important

I made a similar attempt last year, but I stopped when the motivation faded. I met someone, my priorities shifted, and I gradually let the effort slide. That relationship has since ended, and the change in my life has contributed to my decision to try again. The larger reason is still the same: I want fewer limits on what I can do.

The important change this time is that I am keeping a journal. Every day, I post a short vlog on a private Instagram account with my weight, how much I walked, and a short reflection on how things are going. Only a few friends follow it.

That small audience is enough. The journal makes the process visible and makes it harder to quietly stop when motivation fades. It is public enough to keep me accountable and private enough for me to be honest.

A start I can build on

At 148.9 kg, many of the limits that made me start are still here. My atrial fibrillation is not resolved, I cannot ride my bike yet, and I remain 48.9 kg away from my current target. But losing 14.6 kg in the first two months has given me an encouraging start.

I am beginning this series now so I can record the milestones, setbacks, routines, and adjustments as they happen, with the real numbers included. I do not have a finished transformation or a perfect method to sell. I have a simple plan that is working for me, visible progress, and plenty still to learn.

The next milestone is 140 kg and getting back on my bike. It is still 8.9 kg away, but it feels achievable.